Conversation with a doctor I was giving my medical history to today:
Doc: how many pregnancies and births have you had?
Me: 4 pregnancies, 1 missed miscarriage resulting in a D&C and 3 births, though one was early at 15.3 weeks.
Doc: so you really only have two?
Me: No I have 3 children and 3 births, they were all born the same except my last one was a tiny baby and not alive.
Doc: Ok, so two
Me: Her name was Ava, she had fingernails
Doc: Why did you name her?
Me: because she was born, that's what you do when you give birth to a baby
Doc: oh ok
Me: (in my head) she was born, she was just a tiny person, a small human being 😥
This is why I blog, this is why I talk about her, this is why I want to break the taboo of miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss.